| I thought this was funny |
[03 Oct 2006|12:22pm] |
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I finally bought Iron Maiden's greatest hits cd. I was listening to it in my car and I seriously wanted to fight everyone I saw.
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| I can breathe easier... |
[25 Sep 2006|04:03am] |
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hatebreed |
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that wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be...it was actually kinda fun..
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| no sleep |
[07 Aug 2006|01:30am] |
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one winged angel |
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kindom hearts 2 is fucking sweet.
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| Welcoming insanity |
[21 Jul 2006|01:02am] |
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Misfits |
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This dream has gone on for 3 days. Each time it's gotten more vivid....sights,sounds and the feel of everything around me has become so easy to remember that I woke up tonight thinking it just happened...I don't think i'll be sleeping tonight. I wish all these dreams i've had the last few months, and especially the last 3 nights would just stop.
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| same shit... |
[27 Jun 2006|12:29pm] |
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mxpx |
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nothing is new right now....and that seems to be a problem.
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[07 Jun 2006|04:24am] |
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Protest the Hero |
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Boxing is the only thing keeping me sane. Everyone should come out and watch me fight on saturday. I'm excited since i've been working out at kronk a couple days a week. I was so excited, I tried to call my dad's cell phone and tell him. yeah.....
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| I hate commercials |
[11 May 2006|12:00am] |
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Alexis on Fire |
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I quit my new job before I started because I would have had to quit boxing.
Speaking of boxing i'm back on the suicide diet so I can get down to lightweight. Exhibition at the gym on the 27th this month. Ringside world championships in August in Kansas City. I can't wait.
My room is actually clean. Like I dusted and stuff. It looks.....weird.
Hopefully i'll finish kingdom hearts tonight.
I miss my dad still. I wish I didn't anymore.
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| a;oisnjkm |
[23 Apr 2006|01:23am] |
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dave n busters plus adam equalss a very drunjk happpy adaym
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[09 Apr 2006|05:43pm] |
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Haste the Day |
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I lost in the last 40 seconds of the fucking last round of the finals....
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| this is me bitching....if you don't like it, don't read it. |
[02 Apr 2006|05:39pm] |
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boys night out |
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After today I highly doubt he's listening. I doubt my dad is watching. The little faith I had is pretty much gone. I feel like i'm in a house of strangers. I feel almost awkward being around friends just because I feel so different. It's like a detachment from everything and everyone. It's as if i'm running on autopilot and just going through the motions. I wish I could just forget things for a little while, even if it's just a couple of hours, I just want my mind free of all this grieving, stress, and hurt. I want to forget about the enormous debt we are in now. I want to forget i'm buried in homework. I want to forget everything just for a little while.
Hopefully I will be able to put this out of my mind by this weekend. Golden gloves is this week, and I have nothing but doubts right now. The only good thing for me right now is that i'm pretty sure i've lost the weight I needed to for monday's weigh in.
It's always one thing after another I swear.....
I'm done bitching.
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| due for a miracle |
[25 Mar 2006|02:12am] |
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Thrice |
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I'm sick of being treated like shit. I'm sick of bad things happening to my family and I. I'm sick of telling me it's gonna be ok. I'm sick of watching other people be happy. I'm sick of being sick. I want something good to happen. Actually, I NEED something good to happen, and soon.
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| guys and dolls |
[23 Mar 2006|11:07pm] |
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Face to Face |
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I just got back from the play..... I really don't see why my sister did not have a lead part just like EVERY OTHER PLAY HER WHOLE HIGH SCHOOL CAREER. This new director did not know what she was doing at all.
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| acceptance? |
[19 Mar 2006|07:11pm] |
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h2o |
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I had a dream that instead of going to sleep that day I went with my dad to the office and then to my grandma's. He still got caught in the clotheslines, but I was able to save him and everything was normal. I miss him.
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[15 Feb 2006|02:30pm] |
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swat cats are finally on tv again.....fuck yes.
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[07 Feb 2006|03:40am] |
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why?
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| february 11th |
[05 Feb 2006|04:23am] |
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The Bled |
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I am fighting for sure on the 11th. Everyone should come watch, 7:00pm dynamic boxing gym. 9 dollars covers watching me get beat, 14 other fights, and pizza and pop.
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| yay for updates |
[23 Jan 2006|03:53pm] |
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Atreyu |
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The first week of school was crazy. All my classes should actually be pretty fun. It's kind of shitty trying to manage 4 classes at schoolcraft and two online courses, boxing, volunteering in the resource room at Grant so I can get a little more experience for my app to U of M, and working 25-30 hours a week.....Needless to say i'm a little strung out.
The weekend overall was alright...Saturday I saw Bonnie....That brought back a lot of things I didn't want to feel so needless to say I wasn't too happy for most of the day.....Sunday was sweet because of the football party with my cousins.
The Steelers will win the Super Bowl.
I don't see why Saturday sucked so much.
Dr. Phil is on tv. 10 dollars to the person who bludgeons him to death.
I have a lot of homework. Fuck.
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| It's at...The Alamo...in......the basement. |
[30 Dec 2005|07:22pm] |
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San Antonio was seriously amazing.
First of all, the alumni group had a special check in set up for us. We walked down to the international arrivals area where they had set up their own security checkpoint and luggage check in station. After entering the airport we were at our gate within...i'd say 10 minutes. We had a bit of time to kill so we went and sat in the world perks club....which was fucking sweet considering everywhere else there is to sit in the airport.
The Hotel was right on the riverwalk. All I have to say is, the San Antonio Riverwalk is probably the best place i've traveled to in my life. Every restaurant had better food than anything Michigan could possibly have. There was a bar pretty much every 50 yards. It was 75 and sunny everyday.
As for the game....I will leave it at this.....the officiating was horrid, and as fans we were outnumbered at least 10-1, and do not talk to me about it.
Overall though the trip was awesome. I had the best dinner of my life at morton's steakhouse, got wasted at the coyote ugly saloon, hung out with this girl angie most of the trip...unfortunately she's from Nebraska, asked someone to see the basement in the Alamo...most of the people around caught that movie reference.
I will cut off your head with an eraser.
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| A bitching entry...it's how I feel....I don't care what you think. |
[02 Nov 2005|01:21am] |
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Thrice- music box |
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I've been sick since september with mono and "walking pneumonia". I'm seriously tired of being sick and feeling shitty everyday. I suppose boxing, working, school and then sleeping for 4 hours and doing it all over again wasn't a healthy lifestyle.
Work has seriously pissed me off. It's too shitty of a job for it to stress me out like it has. It's really shitty when people seem to get mad or think you are lying about being sick and then make you feel like shit when you don't. It's shitty that because I asked for a different position I was basically given an ultimatum. My manager i've worked with for 4 years is quitting. It's good he'll be making more and will probably be happier, but it still sucks. It will be interesting to see what happens when I go back to work on monday and everyone sees that I can't do any heavy lifting due to the fact my spleen is swollen from the mono. Which means I can't actually do too much. My doctor is scared it will rupture from any physical stress until i'm finally healthy.
I've obviously been falling behind in school due to the fact i've been sick. I'm not sure how i'm going to completely catch up, but i'm almost there.
I've been questioning a lot of my friendships lately. Whether they are real or not. I just get a feeling from certain people like it's all a joke and i'm being laughed at behind my back. I've already ended a few that I felt were jokes or one sided. It just makes me wonder if people are still friends because that's how it's always been and they feel obligated, or if they actually still are my friends. It's probably nothing and all in my head, but I can't seem to shake these thoughts, especially around this time of year. What do I mean by that? I mean it's very hard for me right now to trust anyone considering it's nearly been a year to the day since I was stabbed in the back by someone I trusted the most in my entire life...obviously i'm talking about Bonnie. Last year I didn't enjoy my birthday at all...this year won't be the same, but it's still going to be on my mind considering my whole outlook on life, and my life in general completely changed that day. I'm not going to lie, because i'm still alone I do miss her. I don't hold it against her anymore, but it sucks she misunderstood what I said the night we argued but oh well. On top of that I don't even know if i'll even be healthy to go and temporarily relieve all this stress by drinking it away on my birthday.
I need something to happen. Something needs to change and it needs to happen soon because i'm tired of feeling this way. Hopefully this is just because i'm stressed out right now and all these feelings aren't true, but i'm having a hard time convincing myself of that. Still, the worst part about my life right now isn't even all these thoughts. It's the fact I haven't boxed in a month. When I finally get back I have no idea what kind of condition i'll be in or when i'll fight. I was supposed to fight in the exhibition on the 12th, obviously i'm not now. I miss it though more than anything. At least it's something to look forward to.
I really hope this birthday is seriously good.
Motrin 600's are awesome at making me feel like i'm almost healthy.
Halloween was boring considering I missed both parties I was going to make an appearance at...and I didn't get to dress up in my Ron Burgundy costume. The little kid who smashed his face on my porch when he tripped up the stairs was kinda funny though. Then I felt absolutely terrible since he was only about 4 years old.
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[28 Oct 2005|03:48am] |
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Today sucked. I feel like shit.
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